When your friend is in pain
The feeling is very strange
Swallowing loads of strain
Calmness you cant arrange.

When your friend woes,
Feels truly strange.
His precious tears flows,
They refute to interchange.

When your friend is standing alone
The feeling is indeed strange
You cant remain his backbone
Frailness, you can't change.

When you see your friend forsaken
The feeling is really strange
You try to induce tempo,
But victory is beyond range.

When your friend finally quits,
The feeling is awfully strange.
His eyes in deep slumber,
His world to him, estrange.


-supported by Bhatia.

I called her after almost a year..
for a reason.. She responded well..
Very professional.. After reason ended..

"Bye." I said..
"mmh.."(softly) her response..


I was not at all a guy who was going to hang up the phone without
knowing the matter..
She just gave some reason I dint remember now..
But I knew it was not that..
"What is it?" I asked again..



"Dont call me again" were her hurting words..

I stopped.. thought about it for a second..
after 10 seconds I broke the silence but not by responding like fuck off..
"Who are you to talk to me like this?"
"I called you for a reason after a year, for some justified work,
I said 'Bye' before you, and this is how you are taking it?"

Again silence...

"Sorry"..As usual she used to say..

But the conversation dint ended.. I want to dug things out..
"What makes you think that I am supposed to call you again?"

"No, its nothing like that"
"I think there will be problems for you and me if you called me again"
The worst reason I heard many many times...

This was something which led me to think about..
I was always concerned about her problems..But was she also?..

She never gave me a valid reason..for our break-up.. which hurts..

Then when I was hanging the phone back..
She said something and this was the other side of her..
which is hidden.. or may be never existed..
"Sorry"..

"What?".. I was not shocked by this.. because I was aware of this side of hers..
The fake one..

"I am sorry for everything happened, I was about to call you"

This is now stunning.. One side "Dont call me again" and other
"I was about to call you"..What kinda girl she is..

Again I was approaching towards bye.. "Tera pointer kya aaya?"..
"6.9"

"Mera to 7.5 aaya.."
Which if crossed seven she was about to gimme anything I ask for..was a promise..
"Jo 7 ke upar hai" pinched me to ask for promise I suppose

"I am not expecting you to complete the promise as you never did.."

She apologised again.. this was her way of convincing which I was weak
against..
which led me date her..love her..
which led me to forgive her for everything happened..
which led me to think of her again and again..

...And its the same going through my mind, making me unconcious..
That is why I am writing it as one of my friend said me to write whenever I feel
something strange..

And now think I am okay again.